i kept myself really busy today. i skipped my first lecture (partly because i couldnt get myself up from bed and also partly because it was on mitosis and it was just A level stuff), went for the second one and i concentrated so hard and took the most amount of notes i've ever taken since i started medical school. liz walked me halfway to the gym, and we chatted and i feel really loved. im really so thankful i've got great friends like dave, yc and liz and laura. im sorry dave you had to see me in that state yesterday.

anyway so i went to the gym for the first time in two weeks, realised after running for 10mins that i had to stop running because i couldnt breathe with all that phlegm that i still have. so i cycled. and i decided i was too weak after 10mins and i shouldn't push myself any further. met sam at the gym who told isaac he met me and isaac told me sam told him and oh during dinner isaac and i realised that we had met each other in kuala lumpur during the interview but i didnt recognise him cuz he cut his hair short! anyways.

met max for lunch. tried blue cheese for the first time. had my first meal of the day which wasnt really a meal cuz i had soup and i was hungry by 4pm but didnt feel like eating anything and i was lazy to walk from the library to the canteen to get food. went to the library to be a nerd and did my ILA. was contemplating whether or not to go for badminton tonight because i really didnt feel like coming back to my room but i knew that i was not physically healthy enough to be training. was only before i met amad at half 5 that i decided to call AJ and tell him i wasnt well and i wasnt going for training. had hot chocolate at starbucks with amad, and had a nice conversation in mandarin. made a date to maybe cook chinese food one day for amad and ran back to ranmoor just in time to get a beef pie for dinner, and i sat at the dining hall for as long as i could till the cleaner told me and renie she wanted to clean our table. eugene my mixed doubles partner called to check if i was going training, i told him if he was going i might go, but he said he wasnt because his girlfriend's car got smashed, i dont know what the link was but anyway it's good he's not going, i get to rest.

i know im ranting but i really dont have much to do. i have the option of going down to halifax to look for dave and liz. but i might just be a nerd and do some studying in my room. and sleep early.

it's no point complaining that it's not fair. life's not fair but it goes on. i dont regret putting in my heart and soul and wont regret not trying harder, i tried my best, i tried so hard and i really wanted it to work out, i really did.

i woke up this morning and it hit me so hard that we've broken up. here i am sitting in my room, gotta get ready to go for class and face the day somehow. but i'll be okay.

okay im running late.

thank you jie for your one hour. it meant so much to me.

as promised, video of the fireworks that i lighted up on friday night

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xW_TWjiUKPA

i was meaning to dedicate the whole of yesterday to reading, but max invited me to join him and his friends to go bouldering and i decided to try something new! so yup my virgin experience at rock climbling. it was so exciting! (but painful for the hands) the first time i climbed up and reached the top i looked down and my heart started pumping so fast, it was quite scary i didnt dare to come down, but after a few times i got used to it, and my arms are achingggg today.. but it was good fun :D

dropped by max's place to say hi to jess and check out their crib. ohhh i love their house.. i love the big rooms and the 2 kitchens and the 3 toilets and the big living room. i wish i lived there. after visiting their place i didnt really feel like coming back to my tiny room in the annexe. stayed there for dinner and chit chat and had icecream and watched a film with their housemates in the basement room. and before i knew it, it was past 1am. they invited me to stay over (which i really would have love to do so) but i didnt bring things to stay over so max walked me home.

ahh i cant wait to move into my own place next year!

we played with fireworks last night! it's bon fire night here in england on the 5th (tomorrow) but we were having a mini exhibition on our own yesterday. eric bought 100pounds worth of fireworks and we went to the park to light them up. once yc sends me the video i will upload it. it was awesome! i mean, you dont get to light fireworks in singapore, it was such a great experience haha.

BUT, after lighting for half an hour or so, 2 policewomen came and eric got a 80pound fine. apparently, we arent suppose to light it in a public area, but we could do it in our backyard/garden. SO our fireworks got confiscated for half an hour, and the policewomen sent it back to eric's house like 45mins later. haha how ssillly! went to some of the malaysians' house cuz they had a backyard, and we continued our fire display. :D

pictures will be up soon!

autumn at the annexe (where i live) we've been blessed with extremely good weather the past few days, including today. nice and sunny. even though it's been getting a lot colder, it's still been lovely cuz it hasnt been raining. but i think i probably have to start wearing gloves, my fingers always feel so frozen when i walk out in the cold. max said it snowed last year in late november, maybe it will snow in 4 weeks' time. brrrrr.

on wednesday we celebrated louise's birthday at Aunt Sally's. It's this really cosy hut nearby the hospital that serves western food, 2-for-1 deals. i like the place a lot! and the food was relatively cheap (i paid 4 pounds for my meal) and honestly yummmmy! this ex-ex-ex-ex-birthdaygirl was from RJ haha but i've never seen her before. (shows how big RJ is. lol) 

taken on halloween night. we didnt dress up, had to attend the MASSOC hustings. went to The Interval at the student union building with a bunch of people. The Interval serves AWESOME hot chocolate! (and alcoholic drinks and food as well) met some random people along the way and wanted a photo with them. can you see the gorilla behind?? 

mei, im your xmas present, big i may be, fat, erm i beg to differ. hahaha. (: anyway i saw something the other day while i was out shopping and i HAD to buy it for you. you will LOVE IT! that was before i knew i was going home, thought of mailing it to you, was worried it would spoil before it got to you cuz it is quite fragile. BUT im gonna bring it back to you! (: i just got my air ticket in the mail today! (: 19th december i expect you to be at the airport!

anyway i saw your video and i realise i miss rjbt a lot. please help me say happy belated birthday to mr wong.

approximately 100mL of mucus is produced daily in a healthy, non-smoking individual. i dont smoke, but clearly, im not healthy.

i think i have been producing one litre a day for the past two weeks.

hmm. but im getting better. yay!

im gonna play with fireworks tonight! :D

so i FINALLY went to see a doctor. but, it was honestly a total waste of time because, he told me he cant do anything. hahah, well i had expected that i mean, doctors cant do anything about the flu. owell.. rest rest rest.

anyway im happy when szehui becomes a megasuperstar she wont forget me ;)


passerby: hey (: thanks! take care of yourself too!
dong: DONGNI I HAVENT HEARD FROM YOU IN 1298715198357193586319538YEARS!!!!!!!!! anyway, do u have a break in december?

im sure the whole world doesnt exactly want to know that i coughed till i puked my cereal out this morning during lecture but.. other than that nothing really interesting happened today really.. on my way back i stopped by a gift shop and i saw rob and was telling him how i want to go trick or treating tonight and he said "aren't you a little too old for that?" ....... well i dont really care if im the oldest person going for trick or treating, thing is, i dont know if i should and if i do what i should go as. so, i decided, im going to take a nap now and maybe i will dream of a solution. (:

cya later!

for the past few weeks ive been contemplating whether or not i should go back home during xmas. i really want to, but whenever i think about the cost i feel like i shouldnt be asking for so much, it's too expensive to fly home, so i never thought of asking daddy and mummy whether i should go back. papa james and mama judy have been calling me the past few weeks telling me to just book a ticket home and they'll pay for it, but i didnt want them to pay for it either.

the month of october is nearly over, and winter is nearing, and i thought hey, it wouldnt be so bad, i'd go travelling! i want to go to milan, but thing is, no one would be here to go with me and i wouldnt dare go on my own, and i want company anyway. i wanna go prague and i want to go to geneva. ho ho ho big plans, but not possible this christmas. so i thought, okay, i'd visit friends in different parts of england! i could go to london! maybe manchester! but guess what, everyone is either going back to singapore or already made plans to travel to europe. great. then i thought maybe i could visit yingyan in NY! but sigh, too expensive. so im back to square one.

and the more i thought about how i've to spend one month here alone in the annexe, the more i dreaded it.

and i know how dark it's going to be everyday (laura and i went out for dinner just now at 530pm but it was already pitch dark and the moon was out! 530pm!), and knowing me, i'd just stay indoors once the sun goes down because i'd be too afraid to walk out in the dark alone on a cold winter day/night because im not used to the (poor) lighting here and im afraid i'd get mugged/sexually assulted/etcetc. then i'd get bored to tears because i have to spend hours in my room that is not that tiny but small enough to make me feel like it is a tinylittleroom. plus the fact that im coughing my lungs out and i have tissue burns above my lips (i feel so guilty i killed a tree -- with that amount of tissue paper ive been using...), made me feel really depressed. i hate being sick. it's been too long and i dont seem to be getting any better. and the medicine here costs a bomb. bought a box of cetirizine dihydrochloride tablets for my cold today and cost me 7pounds. :(

anyway i was really happy talking to vivian and chloe online they made me so happy because i havent crapped with a crap buddy in the longest time and i felt constipated. now i feel.. uh, relieved.

did i mention i had dinner with laura? yes i think i did, and i was so chatty i think she was surprised. she's off to play badminton now though, im not playing because no. 1 im sick, and no. 2 i dont want to get any sicker, and no. 3 i washed my hair this morning. and i dont like washing my hair twice a day, it makes my hair too dry.

but anyhoooooooos, so the thing is, i was very depressed this morning yes after class when i came back to my room and was coughing and coughing and coughing AND coughing, i suddenly had this urge to call daddy and tell him i want to go home. so i did. and i think i shocked/scared him cuz i have never called home since i got here, except when i first arrived, he must have thought something bad really happened that made me want to go home so bad. plus the fact i was sniffly and my voice is really hoarse, erm i mean, sexy now, he thought i'd been crying for ages. well, nothing bad happened, just that im sick and i decided that i really want to go home in december and if i didnt act now there would be no more air tickets left.

SO he said he'd call me back. and he did, and he said i should go home if no one is going to be here with me in xmas. and i was just about to book my ticket online (ohyes, a long story for that too. i spent AGES trying to find the cheapest flight back home, and i found one on qatar airways. and while waiting for daddy to call me back i was already filling in my debit card details waiting to click "confirm ticket") and daddy said not to book a new ticket he'll try to get me a seat on SQ. so... i didnt. and i had to go to class. so daddy said he'll contact me tomorrow to let me know if mummy could get me a seat. SO, i went to class, well, RAN to class cuz i was running late, and throughout the tutorial other than coughing and disturbing the class and running to the toilet to puke because i was coughing so bad and in between listening to what the tutor was saying, i was hoping the flight on Qatar airways wouldnt be fully booked by tomorrow. (yes im that paranoid)

remembered i was suppose to sms philipp because he asked if i wanted to have lunch, but i already had lunch so i thought i'd have tea with him but he was back in his room taking a nap, so i headed to the library with anna and erm another girl in my tutorial but i cant remember her name, in fact i didnt get her name at all. met laura and jessica and another girl whose name i didnt get either and decided to come back home with them cuz i was bored at the library, i had nothing to do!

came back, switched on my laptop, logged onto gmail. and saw daddy's email. and he said that all flights back to singapore from the 15th to the 19th are fully booked, and i had to try get my own ticket home.

so.



i did.




and to cut the long story short (congratulations if you actually read EVERYTHING from the top all the way to well, here, this must have been the longest entry i've had in AGES)

im going home in december!! :D

i sold my ticket to Lake District yesterday and spent the day in my room instead. called up dr prashant to check if i could get some medication from him but he told me i could get the same medication that he wanted to give me from the pharmacy at broomhill. so i thought, i'd just go straight to the pharmacy instead. so after watch Kill Bill Vol. 1 on dvd, i rushed down to broomhill only to be disappointed because the pharmacy was not open :( came back had a light dinner and watched Kill Bill Vol. 2 on dvd.

so that was basically my sunday.

and today, i forgot to buy my medicine when i was on the way home from lecture. ohyes, i went for my first lecture at 9am only to be told that the lecturer was ill and couldnt make it so the lecture was cancelled. and our second and also the last lecture of the day lasted merely half an hour. sums up my morning in school.

i have a tutorial later at 3pm, i must remember to buy my medicine at boots.

meanwhile, im waiting for daddy's call.

ahhhhhh. felt much better today. even though im still sniffling and coughing i feel so much more alive. talked to jeev in the morning for a bit (: best way to start my day. (: decided that i should head into the city to get a little shopping done! had such an awesome time walking from shop to shop, walking into shops whenever i felt like, discovering new shops, finding good bargains. there was a street market at the city centre today and a carousel, spinning tea cup rides etc. bought myself some gummy bears and was nice people watching and soaking in the atmosphere. i love spending time with myself.

during dinner i was asking around whether the postman delivers mail on saturdays and most people said yes, so i got really excited cuz i was guessing the parcel jeev sent me may have arrived! (: and it did!

so now im facing a box filled with a box of cookies, a macadamia milk chocolate bar, and sweets. (: (: my tummy feels the lovin'! ;)

i feel really happy.. but i miss him a lot :(

i emailed prashant to tell him i was sick and i couldnt get a doctor today, and he replied

"ha ha ha ha ha ha!! sick again!!"

:S

yes my kind friend who happens to be a doctor.

he asked if i could get access to cetrizine tablet, no idea have to go to the pharmacy tomorrow. and told me to get some fridge water dip a match stick in it and put a drop of the water in ur nose. Hmmm. if im deperate i will try tonight.

anyway i spent my afternoon sleeping and watching jerry maguire. and dave laura rachel and varsha popped by to check on me after class, dave was very kind he got me cough syrup. had my first meal of the day at 5pm cuz i had no food in my room and was too tired to go look for some, and even though it's 820 now i feel sleepy already..

yesterday was probably the worse night i've spent here. took me forever to fall asleep and kept waking up in the middle of the night struggling to breathe. and i got SO ANNOYED when people started coming back from clubs and drunk guys were shouting and making a whole load of noise outside. the shouting went on for ages and i couldnt fall back asleep. THEN, the fire alarm went off. had to get up, put on warm clothes and wait outside in the cold for the longest time. was freezing my ass off, and the fire brigade came. turned out some stupid english guy smoked in his room and set it off. i was so pissed at that moment i swore i wanted to move out of ranmoor, these people are just so inconsiderate.

it's nearly 12pm and i havent had breakfast and i dont have any thing to have for lunch. but im so tired and it's too cold outside i dont feel like walking to broomhill to get something to eat.

couldnt get a doctor's appointment. maybe i'll call prashant if i really dont get better by tonight.

sigh.

i havent felt so sick in the longest time. im so tired. my head hurts, my ears are blocked, my throat feels so raw from coughing, and dry from breathing in through my mouth cuz my nose is completely blocked. let me see if i can make an appointment to see the doctor tomorrow.

shucks i must call to get a PIN number to use the internet appointment booking facility. :( i'll see if i can remember to call tomorrow morning.

whyyyyyyyyyyyyy whyyyyyyyyy i hate being sickkkkkk.

on a happier note, i got myself a new phone. wheeee. i only have to pay 30pounds and i get a free phone and for 12 months, i get 250mins talktime and 100texts each month. that would mean... each month i pay 2pound50pence for my subscription! :D yayness, the best thing that happened today.

sigh. im bored.. maybe i should watch a dvd. yes i should.

rain rain rain. and more rain.

was really mad last night when people came back from their bar crawl and were screaming and shouting outside my window AND some people were talking outside my door. took me SO long to finally fall asleep, you know how hard it is to fall asleep especially when you've got a blocked nose..

woke up this morning feeling really lousy (not surprising..) and a little grumpy cuz other people were sleeping in and i had to go for my CPR class.

and i had to kiss a dead dummy and pump his chest.

not fun.

but, at least the instructor was funny (even though i kept looking at her hairy forearms, i swear if Dave hadnt mentioned to me i wouldnt have kept noticing them)

lecture was. bearable. and then i had to go for BUSA games at a farfarfarfarfarfarfarfaraway place, thankfully i got a ride there, i cant imagine taking a bus out to that farfarfarfarfarfarfarfaraway place to play badminton, would have died in the bus. i was feeling sick, tired and cold and the only thing on my mind was a nice warm bed. was not really in the mood to play a match today but i promised Jen and i felt bad if i were to back out.

trying to complete my tutorial now, but i cant seem to concentrate. bloody nose. sick of being sick :(

all i want now is to hear jeev's voice..