i took this photo yesterday after my workout at the gym. i was just walking to the city and i saw this tree with beautiful red leaves. and it just made me stop and i felt really happy looking at the tree (no im not crazy). and i had to take a picture, you know, capture that moment. probably lots of people walk past that tree everyday, but i dont think many, if any, stop to admire it's beauty. it made me realise that sometimes in life we just have to slow down and stop and observe, and you realise that there are so many things around you that are so worth noticing.

me and my ramblings.





anyway took a bus down to stockbridge today after school. ohmygwad the bus ride cost me 3poundfifty. i mean even though it's a day rider trip, it's still so expensive. but it was worth the one hour bus ride. i had two fantastic matches. i felt really good playing singles again! surprise surprise! im still quite good! hahaha. yay, morale is up for nottingham games :D

speaking of which, Dr Cope was very kind and told me i could take my formative assessment after i come back from nottingham next week :D yay. so i can leave on friday morning for nottingham without worries.



heya kohzy, nope i didnt get your msg. which number did u send your sms to? my uk number?

dear anonymous, well there is always both sides to a coin i guess. having priorities can be good and bad at the same time. sometimes you have to plan and prioritize, there are times you just have to just trust things will happen they way they ought to and like you say, see each day for what it is. but as it is, sometimes, people end up not seeing at all. and instead of embracing each new day, and what each day brings, they lose track of what they are living for. perhaps it's just me, i know what i want and im willing to prioritize and fight for what i want and i choose to believe that's what makes me different.

as for idolising him - thing is, i loved him for who he was, he didnt have to try to live up to any status. but when a drastic change occurs, i cant just live with it poking me in the eye and not say anything about it. it'd take me ages to explain and clarify but i dont really want to. so yeah.

was walking to the city after working out at the gym and saw this tree.
i thought it was really beautiful. look at those redred leaves.
i dont know why, looking at beautiful trees make me happy. i think it has something to do with appreciating the little things around me. (okay trees arent that little, but you get my drift.)
i love autumn (:

 

i miss him so much. but i have to try it on my own.

thank you bon jovi

I should have seen it coming when roses died
Should have seen the end of summer in your eyes
I should have listened when you said good night
You really meant good bye

Baby, ain't it funny, how you never ever learn to fall
You're really on your knees, when you think you're standing tall
But only fools are know-it-alls and I played that fool for you

I cried and I cried
There were nights that died for you baby
I tried and I tried to deny that your love drove me crazy, baby

If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river I cried aint that long
Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong, this ain't a love song

Baby, I thought you and me would stand the test of time
Like we got away with the perfect crime but
We were just a legend in my mind
I guess that I was blind
Remember those nights dancing at the masquerade
The clowns wore smiles that wouldn't fade
You and I were the renegades, some things never change
It made me so mad cause I wanted it bad for us baby

Now its so sad that whatever we had, ain't worth saving
If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river Ive cried ain't that long
Then I'm wrong, yes I'm wrong, this ain't a love song

If the pain that I'm feeling so strong
Is the reason that I'm holding on
Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong - this ain't a love song

was about to jump into bed when i saw a fly in my room!!! and i hate sleeping with insects. (i think it's the smell of the fries that dave bought for me that attracted the fly) anyhows, varsha came over saw my door was open saw my window was wide open and asked shouldnt i be asleep cuz afterall i have to wake up at about 530 tomorrow morning (cuz im going to nottingham), and i told her the prob i faced :( no way am i going to bed with a fly. so we ended up spending 15mins swatting the fly and ended up catching it in my glasscup and setting it free out of the window. yay. peace.

so now im going to bed. 1030pm. a record. night world.

i have to quote dave's fav phrase.. shit has hit the fan. got myself into some mess i have to pull myself out from. have to do that today. didnt use my head didnt use my heart used my fart. (omg dave that made me laugh so bad, but it's so true. what was i thinking.) and its not helping that i feel guilty for not going for my morning classes again and okay i have to stop my pathetic whining . its crazy its the first time my whole life i've been sleeping past 2 in the morning for a whole full week, its a wonder im not getting more sick.

thank you everyone for your words of encouragement and concern. you have no idea how lucky i feel. i went for a memorial service on wednesday and it was suppose to be a memorial service for the people who donated they bodies to the university for students like us to do dissections on. and the pastor spoke of giving and receiving. and he said how in our lives we find ourselves giving to others. and at the same time we are receiving whether or not we realise it. and i realise i have been receiving a lot from people who love me, and im really thankful for that. especially my best friend in sheffield, i'd prob drown in mucus and tears if you werent there to hand me tissue paper and pick me up and yes i was a mess but you were there. and yc, for those messages to remind me to be happy and those lame jokes that always made me laugh.

okay shower and off to eat. im so hungry. and then to class.

oh i didnt mention jess and joseph and xiaoli cooked chicken rice yesterday. omg SO YUM. the dessert was yummier, chocolate caramel slices :D okay that was the last time i ate. the more i think about food the more i feel like my stomach is going to cave in.. tata.