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i kept myself really busy today. i skipped my first lecture (partly because i couldnt get myself up from bed and also partly because it was on mitosis and it was just A level stuff), went for the second one and i concentrated so hard and took the most amount of notes i've ever taken since i started medical school. liz walked me halfway to the gym, and we chatted and i feel really loved. im really so thankful i've got great friends like dave, yc and liz and laura. im sorry dave you had to see me in that state yesterday.

anyway so i went to the gym for the first time in two weeks, realised after running for 10mins that i had to stop running because i couldnt breathe with all that phlegm that i still have. so i cycled. and i decided i was too weak after 10mins and i shouldn't push myself any further. met sam at the gym who told isaac he met me and isaac told me sam told him and oh during dinner isaac and i realised that we had met each other in kuala lumpur during the interview but i didnt recognise him cuz he cut his hair short! anyways.

met max for lunch. tried blue cheese for the first time. had my first meal of the day which wasnt really a meal cuz i had soup and i was hungry by 4pm but didnt feel like eating anything and i was lazy to walk from the library to the canteen to get food. went to the library to be a nerd and did my ILA. was contemplating whether or not to go for badminton tonight because i really didnt feel like coming back to my room but i knew that i was not physically healthy enough to be training. was only before i met amad at half 5 that i decided to call AJ and tell him i wasnt well and i wasnt going for training. had hot chocolate at starbucks with amad, and had a nice conversation in mandarin. made a date to maybe cook chinese food one day for amad and ran back to ranmoor just in time to get a beef pie for dinner, and i sat at the dining hall for as long as i could till the cleaner told me and renie she wanted to clean our table. eugene my mixed doubles partner called to check if i was going training, i told him if he was going i might go, but he said he wasnt because his girlfriend's car got smashed, i dont know what the link was but anyway it's good he's not going, i get to rest.

i know im ranting but i really dont have much to do. i have the option of going down to halifax to look for dave and liz. but i might just be a nerd and do some studying in my room. and sleep early.

it's no point complaining that it's not fair. life's not fair but it goes on. i dont regret putting in my heart and soul and wont regret not trying harder, i tried my best, i tried so hard and i really wanted it to work out, i really did.